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LIVING IN MY OWN PARADISE
♥therockstar-
Saturday, September 5, 2009
   The past whole month of Aug is my darkest period which explained why I did not update my blog for quite sometime. I faced two setbacks which reali make me very down during this period of time, one of them is the news of me being retrenched. Though before that I actually got the feeling due to the customer Im handling moved to hk & the account will be hand over to my hk branch so means I will have noting to do. I'm waiting for my sales manager to tell me will there be a new delegation of job or watsoever but is only when I have almost complete the orders then she tell me the news. I din know it will be so fast i thought it will be around next yr then she will break the news to me. Jus when I wana settle down in a company then I need to leave again and everyone knows that now the economy & market is so bad & is going end of the yr is hard to find a job nowadys. And have to start all over again learning new things, adapt to new environment , passing the three months probation all these I really dun like at all. I just feel the co is using me why only tell me now when they actually know the customer alrdy move to hk in april and the sales manger can just tell me now only the boss make the decision what a fucking answer! Well since is a fact i have to accept so went searching online for jobs & flooding my applications to agencies and almost one mth then I found a job compare to e times when e economy is gd I can find within two weeks. Lucky is straight after I leave e co I got to start the new job alrdy. But this job is quite different from my previous job scope, to say frankly im not quite used to it but telling myself to work hard & learn. The second setback is the worst which happened jus after I know Im being retrenched. My previous post I was saying in chinese I feel Im so stupid & naive . I know this guy from tagged, he wrote to me on 28th june. We get to chat more is around mid of july & i feel happy chatting with him though sometimes we chat is 'bo liao' things on line & on the ph for the one whole week before we meet up one day. Before we meet, I alrdy know hw he lk like as he webcam me. Well I'm realli sincere in making friens with him , who knows when I msg him that Im down as I jus got the news im being retrench he din reply. The next two days I sms him many times, even msg him in tagged & called him many times also no reply. And he's not even online anymore guess he avoiding me & had block me from msn....I dun noe what's wrong though I know he wana find sugarmummy & ladies who are rich. Bt bf that I told him Im not rich and we are friens only so he nev say he mind. But from the response is obvious the minute he know im jobless he dun wan to be frien with me alrdy I was thinking also he tought I will ask him for money. I jus feel sad that Im sincere is making frien with someone but the person is not. I reali think I have not seen enough of the world like my the other frn say there are so many types of people in this world and Im so easily to belive others. I can't take it lying down, so at first I was damm angry and feeling down. But now I learn to let go since he dun wan to be frien with me let it be one day he will be treated by the others like hw he treat me. This period of time Dar is beside me giving me words of encouragement & sis is very concern about me also ask me not to worry I will definetly find a job. She even send me two dresses that she sell in her online blogshop which I told her bf i like very much &; a note to me as above: I love both of you!
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