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LIVING IN MY OWN PARADISE
♥therockstar-
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Every year I never failed to wish you happy birthday except yesterday. I just can't bring myself to wish u. I'm nt angry with anything, or can't forget last year my birthday you didn't gave me any present....im not so childish. I still remember when you was young and you're still schooling, u will never failed to gave me present made by ur own. Bt when you started working part time last year you don't even gave me any present...i'm nt really wanting a present my feeling is when you was still schooling I understand you also do not have much pocket money bt yet you still will made someting for me, you know is that kind of feeling you treated me as ur loved & closed one. And I guess you have a lot of friens to wish you also, without mine also dun make any difference. Bt now u've earn some money though is not much, don't say u never bought me a prsent the thought of making a present like last time for me is also gone. I keep telling myself I've treated you so gd last time, every year I will buy u a birthday gift, I dun exepect in return bt I was happy to receive those that were made by ur own...is the thought that counts. Is is the age gap problem? When I recalled back you will always come to my hse look for me asking me to play with u calling me huijun jiejie, putting a lot of letters in my mailbox all these memories I guess already were erased from you mind. Maybe is I who is too sentimental and can't accept you've changed. Bt I'm alws like this no matter treating a frienship or relationship I alws tink abt the past, I know is nt good for me if I alws think abt the past...so now I learned to let go means I don't want to care anymore like I say no matter hw good you treat a person with ur true heart last time, they won't feel it. I jus can't treat you as my closed one like e past, TO YOU : Sometimes when things are lost you can never find back.
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